.Tuesday, August 18, 2009 ' 8:47 AM Y
funny,wen things juz hpn d opposite of wat eu wan..
lyk eu wana throw a ball up high n not cum dwn
but gravity owys pulls back
sumtymz i juz dun undrstnd
y life hav to turn out dis way
im planning to go to dctr today
if i hav tym
i havent been slpin well nowadays..
all i do is slp 2 or 3 hrs wake up
cry for n hr den fall aslp for anotha 2hrs
den wake up again n cry n fall bck to slp
owys go to werk wif swollen eyes nowadays
tot of havin dem to prescribe me slpin pills
it wud b much betta
in abt 5 days it wud b our 7 mth annie
dis tym for sure it wud b full of hatred
in abt 6 days it wud b my bdae
hmm
i juz wish of skippin it
might juz go to work on dat day
if not,den i might b goin for circuit revision
den for prac 6 again
if it ends in d eve
if i hav no plan
i might juz go hm
n slp
if there is slpin pills is much more betta
i can pop afew n hibernate lyk a bear
there is no bdae wishes for me
coz it aint cumin true
god is neva by my side wen i ask for things lyk diz
i reali hav given up hope in life
d otha day wen i was awake one nyt
i was sittin n askin myself
y sum ppl juz cnt acpt me for who i m
y ppl cnt c my effort
im sick n tired of tryin
sum day i will juz hav to end my lyf
its painful to leave d ppl dat is so important in my lyf
but it will lessen my pain by leavin
i wonder
y god let me live to suffer?
iz there sumtynk wrg i did in my past lyf?
i owys giv up easily
dats y i dun lyk dis world
its full of challenges n i cant defeat ppl
sumtymz on d days wen i wan ppl to listen to my probs
i juz get critics
but wen it cums to dem,they expct me to listen
i got no one else in lyf
even d person dearest to me is disappearing
n i dunnoe how to hold on anymore
my hopes n dreams r all destroyed
y cant ppl juz for 1 day
listen to me
juz let me talk
wifout any critics
no one trust me
neither do i trust anyone or even myself
its hard in lyf
i fucked dis rs big tym
but i hav no regrets
things happens n i cant stop it
ppl r not meant to b wif me
im juz useless
i reali hav given up hope
coz wats d point of hopin wen nutin happen
eu dun c my effort
im givin up lyf right dis moment
it is so painful gettin hurt
eu noe,it makes me cry evry single day wifout fail
but do eu noe?
to ppl i luv
i will owys luv eu even at the shortest tym ive spent wif eu in dis lyf
i will neva for get all d memories we hav spent
may we see ech otha in anotha world
gud bye luv ones
i givin a last hope
dat dis is not d end.....
