.Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ' 11:20 PM Y
its been a rough tym for me..
everything seems to be pitched high
but suddenly come crashing down
fylin so not good
maybe im juz emotionally upset
my birthday is cumin up nxt mth
n ech day it seems so dreadful
i hate birthdays
its juz so not fun
birthdays were never fun to me
coz i either hav to share it wif sum1 else
or i hav to celebrate belated
or not at all
gettin older
n yeah it sux
feelin so left out
my wish dis year for my birthday
is to get wat i mostly wan
i dowan money,i dowan gifts
i dowan a cake,i dowan anything expensive
i juz wan 1 thing dat i realise
i lost it along my way
n i noe even how much i wish for it
or even pray for it
i will neva get in dis life of mine again
coz it is long gone
so i hav to continue my years
searchin for it
i luv my bdae last year
at least it was sumtynk
eventhough i was ony wif prabhu n helmy
i duno how dis year wud be
maybe anotha rotten bdae i usually get
im not hopin for it
im not lookin forward for my bdae
i juz hope
there is 23 den 25 skippin 24 on d list
I LOST EVERYTHING NOW
I REALISE IT
tym is runnin up
gettin distant
N further away
are eu cumin back
or are eu juz goin to move on
leavin me broken again
i cant stand d thought
i gave eu wat eu wanted
but lately im not gettin any in return
tears roll day by day
n do eu realise it?
do eu even noe wat caused it?
if eu wan it fair,so do i
d pain of missin is so great
yet i keep my silence
dis silence will no longer stay
coz it will break out in pieces n say
dun torture my miserable soul
coz it can no longer hold
stop dis tears from rollin
hold dis soul from fallin
plz cum back
dun leave me
