greetings to evrone
kiir0in3k0 here
updatin d recent
26 MAY 2009
6:15 a.m
my alarm clock rang
so d noisy
hmm
pick up my black hp
press d OK button
tym to wake my baby up
so i pick up my purple hp
n dial baby's num
so delightful to hear his voice
especially wen he juz wake up
so d sexy
but today
it aint dat sexy
it sounds so frustrated
he was mad at me
i woke him up at 6:15 my clock
i dunno wat tym his clock is
but he sure is frustrated
to wake up earlier den expected
afta dat
i fell aslp back
but woke up abt 5 mins later
juz to check on him
so i gav him a text
6:32 a.m
i received a msg
wat i received
wasnt as wat ive expected
its lyk a stab in d heart
ouch
so painful
i can fyl it
i felt my eyes gettin blur
as tears fyl my eyes
n slowly roll dwn my cheeks
for 10mins
my tears juz cnt stop
i kept tellin myself
"juz go to slp"
"he is juz frustrated to b waken early"
so i wipe my tears
n shut my eyes
tryin to fall aslp
but as my eyes r shut
my tears still flows
i duno y
wat ive received
fyl juz so painful
i juz cnt take it
reali
d pain was added
from ystrdy
i told him
of my day at werk
n he seem doesnt bother
maybe he was angry at me
for my big reaction abt
syahmi's nsr bike
but syahmi was my sec skool mate
n we seldom talk
n he gt a gf
n he is not my type
i ony lyk his bike
well ive owys lyk all nsr bikes
nowadays
we seldom myt
n spend tym wif ech otha
is either once or twice a week
i noe he makes effort
tryin to balance his tym
wif skool
werk
n me
i dun mind it
at least juz talk to me
evryday
n kip ech otha updated
so at least
we noe wat had been goin on
wif ech otha's lyf
i hope we will b fine
i reali mish him
hmm
n i dun tynk i wud b able to myt
diz wkend
afraid dat he might b werkin
so unfair
but wat to do
i hav to bare wif it
i hav to b fair
i might not b d ony one miserable
i neva noe if he is or not
i noe he is stress at skool
wif me
n we stay very far frm ech otha
its hard to myt up..
i duno
life is juz unfair to me
hmm
hav to bare wif it
hapienest might b juz arnd d corner
signin off now
